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Memorial

This movie has been made in dedication to those who lost their lives in tragedies and their loved ones. In desperate times, people often begin to realize the aspects of life that truely matter to them. Perhaps in remembering past tragedies people will be able to live according to these realized values instead of allowing them to fade away as they fall back into the routine of their everyday lives.

A Death In Texas

The obvious change that takes place in this essay is the rehabilitation of Jonathan Nobles. He was once a murder for whom nobody would feel sympathy when considering his death sentence. Even during the initial part of his stay in prison Jon seemed to be a menace by ruining TV sets and attacking guards. He goes through a transformation however and turns into a very religious and loving man. This essay asks society to bring about another change as well. The last page of the essay criticizes our criminal justice system. It is clearly not geared towards rehabilitation but rather punishment and release. If Jon was able change himself in an institution that doesn't encourage rehabilitation, he could have been an excellent resource for change in our current system. Unfortunately, another flaw of our criminal justice system in this case was the killing of a man who had recovered and could have possibly changed the system for the better.

A Good Man Is Hard To Find

The biggest deceit in this story to me is the character of the grandmother as a whole. In the beginning of the story, she represents what is considered to be good as she tells the children when they are out of line and remembers the old days with Red Sammy. They speak about the difficulty in finding a good man in present times but it becomes questionable if the grandmother truely knows good from bad. Once she realizes that she is going to be killed, she understands good from bad. She accepts the Misfit for who he is and accepts her death as well. Finally, The Misfit judges her as she judged people her whole life and says that "she would of been a good woman if it had been somebody there to shoot her every minute of her life." He recognized the change that took place in her right before she died.

The Human Condition - Chapter 12

Magritte's painting "The Human Condition" on page 322 is amazing to me because it is so mentally stimulating to anyone who looks at it. Upon first glance, my attention was taken to the scene outside of the window without even realizing that there was a painting within the picture. With further examination, I looked at the curtains and easel and finally the painting within the picture. It makes the viewer really appreciate the layers that can be put into a painting that is on a two dimensional surface. I'm curious why it is titled "The Human Condition".

Portfolio

When I first signed up for this class, I was worried that it wouldn't be very interesting to me as a science major and that I would be required to write papers based on assigned prompts rather than my own ideas. I imagined it being a stereotypical literature class in which I would read a bunch of novels; most of which the majority of the class had already read in high school. After analyzing these works (in more depth of course than when I had read them a few years ago), I expected to write numerous papers throughout the semester comparing characters and themes with the use of symbolism, diction, imagery, and other literary elements. I was even considering dropping the class before the first meeting took place.

Fortunately, to my pleasant surprise, the first day of class ended up attracting my interest more than that of any other course I have taken so far at Carolina. My initial feelings of disinterest changed to nervousness over the intensive work that was described with the computer as I have never been too fond of anything besides Microsoft Word and the Internet. By the end of the day however, I was reassured that the class would be a great learning experience and decided to keep it in my schedule. As it turns out, this decision may be one of the best of my academic career as it has opened my eyes to all different types of learning and expression.

I have been able to express my ideas more freely and clearly through these various projects than I ever have before in writing papers. In the collage for example, in order to weave the images together you must think about how they are connected to one another in the story. Developing the collage creates a physical picture of your interpretation of the story. As is commonly said, "a picture is worth a thousand words" and the pictures that you choose to combine as well as the way in which you manipulate them are worth thousands of your own words.

In creating these projects I also learned how to revise my work. In making revisions, one can constantly improve their work in attempting to reach perfection but eventually settling for excellence. I do not believe perfection can truly be reached in these projects because there are so many areas where multiple images or interpretations can be made. Each option is no better than another, but simply different. Revising involves being able to see which areas needed the most improvement, why they needed improvement, and how to go about fixing them. To be able to analyze one's own work is a lesson not only to be used in the classroom but in life as well. Doing so creates unlimited opportunities to better oneself and become happy and successful.

The following are the projects that I have created over the course of the semester. I have explored various works such as The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald, "To Be of Use" a poem by Marge Piercy, Lord of the Flies by William Golding, various poems by Emily Dickinson, 7th Heaven the TV series and the movie Little House on the Prairie. After analyzing these works, I was able to express my thoughts, feelings and ideas into numerous projects. The projects that I made are collected here and include a playlist, two collages, annotations, a podcast, a movie, and blog comments on other selected works. They are not perfectly self-explanatory representations of my ideas, but may be able to shed some light on some aspects of these works that are important to me. I have also discovered that I may be able to portray my own ideas in more than one way that seem to be equally expressive to me but different to others. For this purpose, there are original and revised versions of most of the projects. You may be able to identify with one more than another although I believe the revised work in each situation is more effective in expressing my own ideas. The improvements made can be recognized in comparing the original and revised works and are discussed in each section of the portfolio. Enjoy!

Playlist Assignment

The playlist that I created is from the perspective of Jay Gatsby. It tells the story of his life and is very indicative of his emotions throughout the novel. I wanted to write out my playlist from Gatsby's perspective because while the novel is written about his life, it is told from another man's perspective. Here I do a little interpreting myself in creating more of a personality for Gatsby as someone who is very in touch with his feelings. The reader does not get to know Gatsby too personally through the novel, so through the playlist I can put my interpretation of the emotions that I believe Gatsby feels. At certain points Gatsby becomes somewhat feminine in his song choice and resorts to feminist songs such as Unbreak My Heart when he loses Daisy. Since he no longer has her in his life, he loses much of his masculinity which is what I was trying to get across in choosing a more feminine song.
I also changed a few songs from the original to the final draft. As you can see below, I took out the song Hopelessly Devoted to You. I believe that it was too feminine and repetitive so the playlist becomes stronger without it. Reunited was changed to Back Together Again which is a much more upbeat song and more approprate for representing that section of the novel. The tempo of this song represents Gatsby's feelings much better as he is ecstatic to be with Daisy again. Also, I'm Lost Without You was changed to Here Without You. Here without you is also a better song for Gatsby's selection because of the mood and tempo of the song. This song describes the second time that Gatsby lost Daisy. It has a rather slow tempo and the acoustic guitar accompanied only by the vocals creates a sad, lonely mood.

Jay Gatsby Playlist Original
Jay Gatsby Playlist Revised

Collage Assignments

The collage assignments were my favorite project of those incorporated in the portfolio. At first I had difficulty working with the image editing program and getting comfortable. In my struggles I created an image of a bright red and pink floating image of a pig/devil head in the character collage for Lord of the Flies. I played with this image a lot and really wanted to keep it because of its relevance in the novel. I was able to make it look a lot better than it had looked by changing the brightness and intensity of the image. I believe that the image is a result of this being my first time familiarizing myself with a new program but with various changes I was able to revise the overall collage into a success. As I became more familiar with the tools that can be used to create certain effects, this project became almost addicting.
In taking pictures from the internet and putting them together in a different light, we were able to create works of our own from pictures that individually are created by others. These image collages represent my interpretation of the boys in The Lord of the Flies and To Be of Use.

Poem Collage Assignment
I made a few revisions to my original poem collage to improve upon the cohesiveness of the overall image while maintaining the same general idea. I didn't like the way the layers of mud blended together in the first collage so I found a few other images of mud to see which fit together the best. I finally found two mud images that when put together could make a more realistic change from the brown soil to the blue water of the swimmer. All of the objects in the collage have in common the ability to do work. As described in the poem, the human hand is doing work by pouring the pitcher of water. Also the pitcher is doing work by holding the water, the water is adding to the pool and the swimmer works to move forward as he swims. The water also does work on the dirt as it changes it from dirt to mud and the tractor does work cultivating the farm land.
In the second revision of this project I took the image to a different level to give it more meaning to me personally. While the image is rather simple, it holds a lot of meaning. I tried to apply the theme of the poem to my own life and immediately related it to softball. Softball is a huge part of my life that takes up many of my waking hours, has helped me get my mind off hard times, and meet and develop friendships with amazing people. My glove is a symbol of this aspect of my life because without my first glove I would never have been able to experience these great attributes of the game. In my collage I tried to get this across through the use of the glove. The glove that isn't being used is in a darker part of the collage and looks awkward and completely out of place symbolizing the ridiculousness of not using a glove. For the glove to "be of use" one must use it as Derek Jeter is in the larger picture of the collage. I also made the glove being used to its fullest by Jeter brighter to magnify the importance of its use. Jeter uses his glove as his career as well as to inspire young athletes just by the way that he plays the game.

To Be of Use Collage
To Be of Use Collage Revised
To Be of Use Collage Second Revision

Character Collage Assignment
I made several revisions in this collage as well. The most important change that I made was that I eliminated the pig and devil because they did not belong in this scene. While the symbol fits in with the conch and signal fire, the colors and ability to add to the overall statement of the collage was simply not there. The collage is of a torn photograph of the boys which represents their inability to remain united on the island. They all have different ideas of how to survive and can't seem to maintain the idea that to work together would be best for the group. Their signal fire, which is their only hope at being found and rescued, is on the shore between the two halves of the picture along with the conch. The conch represents the democracy between the boys as it is used to call them into meetings. Both the fire and the conch are symbols of the boys as an entire united group and are placed on the shoreline to show how easily they were destroyed in the novel. Their destruction in the novel is related to the ability for the ocean to wash out the fire or drag the shell away with a single wave. In making this collage I learned that although I wanted to fit the pig/devil image into this collage as it was, it wasn't going to work. I tried multiple techniques to force it to fit but eventually realized that the final image was stronger without it. I put a lot of time and revision into this collage and if I were to do it again, would make a completely different scene with a similar meaning. The focus would be more on Ralph and his unsuccessful attempt at creating a democratic society. I would find an image of a boy like Ralph standing on the island alone with the sun setting in the background to represent the failing democracy. The conch and signal fire on the beach as representations of democracy could remain as well as a segment of a flying, partly translucent American flag as the background in the sky above the island. I am satisfied with the final collage that I produced, but would try to make this idea work as well if I were to make another to be able to compare the two different approaches.

Lord of The Flies Collage
Lord of The Flies Collage Revised

Emily Dickinson Annotation Assignment

This assignment was one of the more challenging projects in terms of analyzing the literature. This may be due to the idea that all ten poems are already selected for you to analyze while in other projects we selected out own works to discuss. The option was given to add poems by Dickinson that we would like to analyze to the assignment; however I chose to embrace the challenge of the ten previously selected poems. Some poems were easier to grasp than others. After reading through a few of them several times, I resorted to gaining a little insight from other analytical websites. From the information of others in these few cases, I was able to gain a better concept of an overall theme, and develop my interpretation from there. For other poems, I was able to look at them myself first as a whole and then line by line in order to break down their true meaning.
In writing the annotations found below, I feel as though I have contributed to the analytical literary information available on the internet. These annotations could be helpful to others in the way that other analytical sites helped me get started on a few of the poems. Their own imaginations may be inspired by our work and encourage them to interpret the poem further or from a different point of view.
From this project I learned that there are many different interpretations that can be acceptable for the same work of literature as long as the interpreter can back it up with examples. Also, in creating revisions or adding to the interpretations of others makes you understand another interpretation from a different point of view and compare it to your own. On the reverse side, others are adding to my interpretations as well which gives me the opportunity to discover something that I could have missed originally.

"I heard a fly buzz when I died" - Stillness
"I heard a fly buzz when I died" - Light
"I'm nobody! Who are You?" - Banish
"I'm nobody! Who are You?" - Dreary
"He Fumbles at Your Soul" - Players
"He Fumbles at Your Soul" - Keys
"The Tint I Cannot take - is Best -" - Too Exquisite
"The Tint I Cannot take - is Best -" -- to tell --
"Because I Could Not Stop for Death" - Passed
"Because I Could Not Stop for Death" - Quivering and Chill
"I Started Early - Took My Dog" - Dog
"I Started Early - Took My Dog" - No Man moved Me
"My Life had stood - a Loaded Gun -" - Deep Pillow
"My Life had stood - a Loaded Gun -" - Smile
"This World is not Conclusion" - Slips
"This World is not Conclusion" - Invisible
"Struck, was I, not yet by Lightning" - Not the foe
"Struck, was I, not yet by Lightning" - Setting
"A Light Exists in Spring" - Sound
"A Light Exists in Spring" - Loss
"I heard a fly buzz when I died" - Discussion - I could not see to see
"I heard a fly buzz when I died" - Discussion - Windows
"I Started Early - Took My Dog" - Discussion - Solid Town
"I Started Early - Took My Dog" - Discussion - And made as He would eat me up

Podcast

This assignment was the only true group project that we were able to work on together. We were able to help one another in our other projects, asking neighbors for opinions or help with certain technical aspects but had not created an entire project together before. As my group began to brainstorm ideas I knew immediately that the project was going to be a success. Everyone was excited to work together and our ideas meshed as our podcast began to take form. We chose family as our topic in thinking that it was something that everyone could contribute to and incorporate their own opinions formed from individual experiences. After doing some research, we ran a trial run that went rather smoothly. The trial run was the most important part of this process because we were able to see where we needed to improve and how and when we could react to one another's comments.
I was inspired and motivated by my group members in this project. In many settings I do not speak up and end up wishing that I had including projects such as this one where you must get into character and think quickly. Ranelle, Stephanie and Lynette were able to get right into character without hesitation and created an environment where anyone would feel comfortable speaking up. In a sense they taught me how to be confident in such situations by their example of confidence and spontaneity. The group chemistry that we developed helped our project greatly and we even added jokes within our characters names. Our ability to work together, to enjoy the opportunity given to us, and our agreement on interpretations made our project excellent.
There wasn't too much room for revision in this project although we talked about what we would do differently after the trial run. I developed my arguments further after the first trial. I also tried to speak with more confidence and made a conscious effort to say "umm" less.

Family Podcast

Video

The video that I created was one in remembrance of those who have died in tragedies. My particular focus was on those lost loved ones and their families from the Virginia Tech Massacre and the 9/11 terrorist attacks. These two tragedies are of particular importance to me. The Virginia Tech massacre occurred only last year and threatens the safety of academic institutions everywhere. Immediately after this tragedy I began to think of what would happen if this took place here at UNC because in reality, this type of happening could take place anywhere. The 9/11 attacks also had a significant impact on my life as my community was greatly effected. Numerous individuals from my area worked in the twin towers or were called into the city to help other firefighters and emergency staff. Some of my close friends lost relatives that day whose names are included in the movie I made. I was lucky that nobody in my family was there that day, but many others around me were not as lucky.
In this work I tried to match the pictures to the audio by feeling and meaning. The obvious examples are the children dying of AIDS in Africa or the baby elephant whose community is being devastated by the ivory trade in the Virginia Tech segment. Also, the field of flowers, the woods, and other images from the 9/11 segment have direct references to the text of the poem "The Names." The different images provoke various feelings in the viewer so I took this into consideration and tried to provide the viewer with matching photo impact and audio mood. For example in the 9/11 section, one of the most powerful images is the towers in flames after the crash. Originally, I had this image towards the beginning but took the suggestion that the mood of the poem in that spot was rather mellow. I then matched this powerful image with a more intense segment of the poem and realized the impact it had on the piece as a whole. The only revisions that I would like to make now upon looking back would be to make it more personal. If I could show images of those who died in their lives before the attacks and the impact it had on their families afterward, I think the viewer would be able to relate more on a personal level.
I believe that these tragedies that occur can be life altering for the survivors in a positive way. Many people realize how great it is simply to be alive after a terrible occurence such as these and become thankful for what they have. Unfortunately, after coming to this realization, many people quickly revert back to their everyday lives, forgetting the values that they recently uncovered. In making this video, I hope I can remind myself if not others of the values that I would like to live my life by. With this video, I don't have to wait for the next tragedy to occur to put my own life in perspective. I can now watch the video and remember the unfortunate tragedies of the past. If everyone began to live by their own discovered values, perhaps the amounts of tragedies that do occur could be reduced. Of course this is wishful thinking but for me personally, this video reminds me that tragedies happen to everyone undeservingly and that I should be both appreciative for what I have and supportive to those in need.

Memorials Video

Blog Collection
The blogs are a great way of communicating ideas between classmates without the need for strict proper grammar and formal structure. They also are helpful for those students who are less confident to make bold claims and farther reaching interpretations. I know that I personally would be more likely to express my true idea of an interpretation in a blog than in person where your critics are right in front of you. It is also easier to agree or disagree with another person's blog. Finally the blogs give the reader more time to think about how someone else is interpreting a situation and if they may interpret it differently. In class discussion, one may not be able to organize their thoughts quickly enough to enter in a debate where online, one can think their thoughts through and express them clearly before sharing them with others. The following is my collection of blogs from various class readings.
Blog 1 A view of the driver in "Traveling through the Dark" as heartless as well as the idea of technology vs. nature.
Blog 2 The use of sound and rhythm in "Denver" as well as the lower case letter "i".
Blog 3 There is a feeling of desperation that is present in "The Race" which drives the woman to be successful in seeing her father before he dies.
Blog 4 Discussion of the lack of identity of the women in "The Women Who Clean Fish" and how they are taken for granted.
Blog 5 Discussion of the use of names and trust in Cathedral.
Blog 6 A blog on the painting The Human Condition found in chapter 12 and its layers showing depth.
Blog 7 A comment on the deceit of the grandmother in "A Good Man is Hard to Find".
Blog 8 A comment discussing the rehabilitation of Jonathan Nobles and the flaws of our criminal system in "A Death in Texas".
Blog 9 A blog entry concerning the similarities in the stories "Girl" and "Sweat".
Blog 10 A blog about the different types of work in "A&P" and "I Stand Here Ironing".
Blog 11 A comment on a collage about contrasting colors.
Blog 12 A comment on a photo collage that I liked with great bright colors and a dark shadow.
Blog 13 A comment on the use of a tree in the collage that was exactly as I had pictured it when I read The Giver.
Blog 14 Society and maturity as described in "Rites of Passage", "Advice to My Son", "Betwixt and Bewildered: Scholars Are Intrigued by the Angst of Emerging Adults", and "The Lesson."

Overall this class has been a phenomenal experience. I feel as though I have broadened my horizons, grown as a person, learned that there is always room for revision, and discovered new outlets of expression. This class is the class that I most appreciate of all those that I have taken at Carolina. I don't expect to have another experience like this but if I do I will be sure to embrace it. Thanks for taking an interest in my project. I hope you were inspired!

Jay Gatsby

I would like to begin by first introducing myself as Jay Gatsby. I do not come from old money but have created my own fortune although I would prefer not to discuss it. After being left by the woman I love at a rather young age due to my financial instability and my involvement in the war, I devoted my life to getting her back. I did everything I could to obtain wealth which meant nothing to me but everything to her. I was successful in obtaining a great deal of wealth but not nearly as lucky in trying to recapture her heart. Her name was Daisy and the following is a list of songs that I like to listen to in looking back on my journey and devotion to her.


"I Got You Babe" by Sonny and Cher
This first song reminds me of my short stay in Louisville, Kentucky where I first met Daisy in 1917 when I was a Lieutenant for the war. We were still young and so deeply in love.
"And when I'm sad, you're a clown
And if I get scared, you're always around
[HER:] So let them say your hair's too long
'Cause I don't care, with you I can't go wrong
[HIM:] Then put your little hand in mine
There ain't no hill or mountain we can't climb
[HIM:] Babe
[BOTH:] I got you babe I got you babe"

These particular lyrics from this song descibe perfectly our feelings for one another in our younger years.
Sonny and Cher - The Essentials: Sonny & Cher - I Got You Babe
I Got You Babe Lyrics

Unfortunately, the emotions that we experienced were not enough for Daisy to hold onto while I was away at war. She met another man named Tom and married him while I was still overseas.

"Un-break My Heart" by Toni Braxton
Of course I was absolutely devastated when I heard the news that the one woman that I loved was married to another man. I was crushed and had some difficulty dealing with my emotions. When I lost Daisy, I feel as though I lost part of my masculinity which may be the reason for such a feminine song in my playlist. I certainly had a soft spot for her and didn't want to be with anyone else but her. This song by Toni Braxton describes my feelings towards Daisy as I felt that I would give anything to have her back.
Toni Braxton - Secrets - Un-Break My Heart
Un-break My Heart Lyrics

The lyrics that have the deepest effect on me and my life are the following:

Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away

She meant everything to me and since she had gone I no longer knew how to move forward with my life. She was meant to be the essential part of my life and without her nothing seemed to feel right.

"Thinking About You" by Radiohead
"Thinking about you" is a song that I can relate to in terms of lyrics as well as on an emotional level. It has a tone and rhythm that verify the singer's anguish over his love who has left him in the same way that I felt when I heard that Daisy had left me. When the singer's voice becomes scratchy his emotion comes through stronger than ever and brings back the pain within me when I first lost my love Daisy.



Thinking About You Lyrics

While the sad, painful emotion radiates from this song, the lyrics are quite special as well. These lyrics relate to me in that I constantly think of Daisy. I know that she is only with those people for their money and they are with her for hers as is written below. She does not think of me as I think of her but hopefully she will again one day soon.

I've been thinking about you, so how can you sleep
These people aren't your friends, they're paid to kiss your feet
But they don't know what I know, and why should you care
When I'm not there
Been thinking about you, and there's no rest


A scene from one of my many extravagant parties.


And some of the music you would have heard at my place on a Saturday evening.
1920's Dance Music

These parties were always at my place but I would rarely mingle with my guests. I had one thought in mind when hosting these parties and that was to attract Daisy. I figured that if she would ever come to a party of mine, I would somehow be able to get her back. One evening at a party similar to this one, Jordan and Nick who were Daisy's friend and cousin respectively, were in attendance. I knew that this was my opportunity so I arranged a meeting with Daisy through them.


"Back Together Again" by Donny Hathaway
Donny Hathaway & Roberta Flack - A Donny Hathaway Collection - Back Together Again
Back Together Again Lyrics

After Daisy and I met again, our feelings for one another returned and I felt as though I was the happiest man in the world. This song is much more upbeat than most of the songs in my collection. I love that it stands out in this way because it becomes a fantastic reminder of the time when I was reunited with my love Daisy.

"Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down
The beginning of "Here Without You" as well as the chorus describe what I consider to be the next stage in my life. Everything had been going so well until Daisy's husband suspected her of being unfaithful. We were caught and she chose him over me so I was once again without my love. He allowed her to drive me home after confronting us on the issue. I returned to a saddened state in realizing that I would never have her back.

This song fit my mood at the time as I became depressed. The contrast in my feelings of falling back in love with Daisy and losing her again were as opposite as the upbeat tempo of "Back Together Again" and the slow, sad tone of "Here Without You." I particularly enjoy this acoustic version as opposed to the original version because it seems to be even more lonely (which was how I was feeling) with a single man's voice as he plays the guitar.

3 Doors Down - Acoustic (Limited Edition) - EP - Here Without You
Here Without You Lyrics


"All For You" by Sister Hazel
On the way home from being confronted about our affair, Daisy struck and killed a woman with the car. She drove off without knowing that she was the woman that her husband was having an affair with. Because of my extreme love for her, I decided to take the blame for her murder. I knew I could never be with her again but had too much love for her in my heart to see her suffer. I would truely do anything for her and finally had my chance to prove it.

Sister Hazel - Sister Hazel - All for You
All For You Lyrics

"Piano Sonata No.2 In B Flat Minor Op.35 - Funeral March" by Frédéric Chopin
My devotion and noble act eventually cost me my life. The man whose wife was killed had a true love for his wife similar to the love that I had for Daisy. He believed that his wife had cheated on him with me and that I had killed her. He found me seeking revenge and murdered me. Nick put together a small funeral for me which nobody attended. My devotion to Daisy had caused me to lose any desire for previous relationships that I had with family and friends. I took part in some immoral actions throughout my life, but beneath them all was an undying love. The final funeral march represents my sad, lonely demise from a love that I would give my life for all over again if I could.

Frédéric Chopin - Classical Moods - 100 Top Classical Favorites of All Time - Piano Sonata No.2 In B Flat Minor Op.35 - Funeral March

Denver

As we discussed in class, the diction of the song does not seem to be as important as the sound and rhythm of it. The use of the lower case "i" used several times throughout gives a sense of a speaker with low self esteem and the sad, mellow sound of the song amplifies that idea. These combined factors lead to the last three lines of the song "the sight of you makes me wonder how far is Denver from here?" which is the most emotional section of the lyrics. To me, the speaker seems ready to drop everything to follow a stranger to Denver. I'm not sure if there is some other significance behind the location of Denver. Any ideas?

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